bowing out

school takes up way more time than i predicted. but it's a good thing. the only people i even really see are close friends. i'm pretty happy about that.

in other news, i went into the ocean yesterday for the first time in two years. the water and i are not meant for each other. even though i am a water sign and i do want to be Gi from captain planet for halloween (she has the power of water).. i had fun nonetheless though. :)

Corona's not the worst place ever, but I really have a hard time
liking it.

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it's the kind of good day where imaginary birds are chirping and everyone's smiling and holding doors open for other people and you think everyone is capable of breaking out in song. also, my bank teller gave me two dumdums! all smiles today.

disneyland/ponyo later!

school starts tomorrow. not going to lie, i'm feeling kind of antsy about it. i never meet any new people at ivc. with the exception of lily, that's about it though. crossing my fingers for a good first day tomorrow, and i hope that i get into the classes i need.

fueled by del taco

i'm going to take a second and say that i am very unorganized right now. school is just around the corner, i have to petition to get into most of my classes (which i'm very worried about) and i am beginning the move tomorrow to lake elsinore. i haven't exactly made it clear what i want to keep over here and what i'm bringing over there. the ikea trip would've been more useful if i knew exactly how big the room is, and where i'm moving stuff. is there even an ikea in the inland empire? i think jeremiah said that there is one in rancho.. but that's still not super close to LE. i'm going to persist in getting that second room cleared out and having the bed and dresser get moved downstairs, although i doubt he's going to let me do it...

on the bright side...

is it wrong that i think that robbie from angus, thongs and perfect snogging is a dreamboat? he looks 5-7 years younger than most dudes i'm usually attracted to. it makes me feel like a cradle snatcher. but he's a dreamboat!

i had a dream last night that i was doing cocaine out of a tupperware container. that's what i get for watching an episode of skins before i go to bed.

watching the 5am news with my brother right now.

got home from roman's not that long ago, played some games for a solid couple of hours. went to the iron mule with roman and his friend nick prior to that. i have to say, i hope to never have to step foot in there again. too many familiar faces in there.

the very next day

i've been listening to jimmy eat world's cover of wham's "last christmas" quite a bit today. i really can't hide... i truly wish it were winter right now, just after thanksgiving when the christmas season is really picking up. i only realized this recently, but i fucking love the holiday spirit. it makes me think of everyone i hold close to me. aside from wrapping presents for the people i love, writing notes in cards, to eating a giant meal with your family members and close family friends (admit it, no one really does this all THAT often), i just love that it makes you think of all the people you care about.

also, i love wearing big jackets/hats, cuddling to keep warm, seeing your breath in the air all day (not just the morning), fireplaces, and rain (when we have it).

i can't wait.

where are those ridiculously priced gel pens i bought last month? i had two and now i have none. i need to find them. that's the point of buying overpriced pens or pencils, so you don't lose them.

i think i understand why women read trashy romance novels now. it's kind of like how men need to watch porn, i think. but with women, they prefer to read and use their imagination... and we all know that men are very easily visually stimulated. it's like intellectual pornography. i could be mistaken here.

the pursuit of...

while i was watching funny people earlier with my brother tonight, i was figuring out my plan for the next couple of months.

1. i'm going to be going to school full time again - and actually do it right.
2. i'm not going to be working, at least not until i have a grip on school.
3. must approach my uncle for help. it's the only way.
4. this might require relocating and i've taken that into consideration as well.

i heated up the wheat barley soup for too long in the morning and well, it was really hot. i insisted on eating it as it was anyway.. and i think i burned my mouth. it feels kind of gross. hard to explain but i think i melted off the outer lining of my mouth. is that possible? i think so.

also, i can't play new video games (especially if they're the fighting kind) with my brother because when he gets the hang of it he's really good, and then i don't want to play anymore.

it's just one step in the right direction.

veggie grill. two buck chuck. 500 days of summer. planning the next all girls bonfire or sleepover.

is this heat making everyone else feel as crazy as it is me? i'm doing unexplainable shit, my brain just hasn't been consulted with any of the decisions i've made in the past couple of days. i smell like a wet towel.

from m cafe on sunday

you know what i'm afraid of? being old. and i'm not talking age old. i'm talking about being an adult. prime example: jr. he's only 23 right now, but he's not young anymore. graduated college, works a 9-5 job, rarely hangs out with his friends, lost interest in the things he used to like (shows, movies, etc.) and bought a kawasaki motorbike.. which is now his pride and joy.

someone please kill me when i become that boring.

i got a manicure for the first time since trabuco's homecoming my senior year. my nails are green.

good girls day out today. but now i am exhausted and it's only 9pm! this is unheard of.

you know i like my boys a little bit older

do you remember the first song you ever slow danced to? with the opposite sex, i mean.

i remember mine, i think i was in the sixth grade. the winter dance at my middle school. it was to nsync's "this i promise you", with a boy named richard hight. at least that's how i think you spell his last name.

i'm watching the music video for say anything's "alive with the glory of love", and i think max bemis is kind of tubby. i'm cool with that.

nothing but wear between all of my everythings

here it is (in no particular order):

finish 3 books that i started but are currently lagging - downtown owl, burning fight and norwegian wood.
sell my textbooks - i've seriously been lagging on this.
drink more water - this could be why i get sick every time i drink. i'm already dehydrated.
clean out my closet - i don't need all the clothes i have, i should give some away..
spend more time in the library - i got more done in the ivc library than anywhere else.
eat out maybe twice a week - a good way to save money and eat healthier.
watch at least one netflix a week - otherwise my 10 bucks a month are going to waste.
get a gym pass - this one is new since i've just been recently unemployed. why not get in better shape? i have no excuse not to now. (8/11)

this list isn't very good. when i think of better things to put on here, i will.

i am going to a uci veggie grill party on tuesday night. i will probably get very drunk with kyla and dean. this is going to be fun.
i just put on this black cardigan that i let josh borrow for the longest time and it smells way too much like him. he had a sweating problem. speaking of smelly clothes, i have some serious laundry to do tomorrow. this is how i know i have too many clothes: going two weeks without doing laundry (or needing to).

on the agenda for tomorrow: dmv, ellie with christina, paperwork at school, dinner with dan lee, hangout with aaron. and possibly beach house in newport with stephanie. i think i told megan i wanted to get dinner too.

some things you may not know about me, i have a strong dislike for green day and the white stripes. feel free to flame me, but that's just how i feel. also, i will never understand how or why people stay friends with the people they knew in high school. do i sound like a jerk? maybe that sounds more bitter than jerk-ish, but i did not like the people i went to high school with. and therefore cannot understand people who are still friends with people they graduated with. my core friends are people i met through being at work or my coworkers. what does that say about me?

Why I hate family get togethers (or at least mine):

Them: "You've put on so much weight."
Me: "Yeah, I guess."
Them: "You used to be so thin."
Me: "The last you saw me, I might have been 14."

Cue my uncle whipping out a picture of me in Laos at the very ripe
age of 9. He says, "You used to be so innocent. You're just a bad kid
now."

More on this later.