caroline always seems to cry.

i want to say that it was recently that i've figured out what i want when it comes to dating. i hate talking about dating. but here is the one time i will talk about it. i used to be attracted to dead-end guys. guys with little to no ambition, guys who drank too often for my liking, guys who didn't have their shit together. i used to be attracted to guys based off of my first impression, looks especially. i will openly admit it, and i'm sure many people feel the same way. but it doesn't work like that for me anymore. it's hard for me to be attracted to someone now who i feel may be going nowhere - fast. i want the person i'm with to want more out of life. life is never very long. but if you want to make the most of it, then great. i'm not looking to be in a relationship anytime soon, but when i do find someone, i'd like for it to be a real, lasting relationship.