life is full of possibilities.

the natural progression of things.

i've been so reluctant to trust these days. being disappointed and let down is now on my list of things i fear (although it should have been a long time ago, it wasn't). i'm starting to take signs and fate a little bit more seriously than i used to, which was almost not at all. it feels like everything seems to happen for a reason. whether that is really the case or not, it's all very coincidental and i'm okay with that.

i always feel unadjusted the morning following a night of drinking. i'm disheveled, forgetful, and tired too. tomorrow is a new day?

presently concerned with the amount of school work i need to finish before wednesday. i was pretty upset when i realized i had taken nearly as many electives as the amount of classes required for igetc. looking on the bright side though, better to take those classes now at the price i'm paying for them than to not have, because i probably won't have time to do that after my major prep requirements are done.

irresponsible seller on ebay - i'm going to fuck you up!

this is all rough because who knows if i'll even get the time off. but - may as well do this.


for this month...

-start the process of getting a passport
-buy plane tickets
-register for spring 2011 and order books before january


this was a short to do list. guess i'll add more as i remember.

last week, i had a dream that i was engaged to my (good looking) co-worker. it was super fucking weird because everything was taking place at work, we acknowledged that his ex worked there too, and i had the ring on my hand, but i enjoyed that. my conscience still exists in my dream: i felt great about being engaged, but not on who i was engaged to. MEH. i'm so exhausted.

it's really unfortunate how many immature/retarded people i'm surrounded by.

met the sweetest old man today while making a stop at peet's to say hi to cj and julian. he was extremely encouraging, told me i spoke well.. too bad it doesn't translate on paper. i might just check out the MOLAA in long beach.

i picked the wrong things to go inside my breakfast burrito i had this morning at mother's. it was awful. this is why i don't try new things.