Monday, September 28, 2009

135.

is it pointless to wonder why someone doesn't love you?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

as spoken to me last night, relationships of any sort should be an exchange, not a transaction.

i just can't take some things too seriously.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I guess I should take Prozac, right, and just smile all night at somebody new..

i suppose i'm not really surprised. no use in dwelling about it, there isn't really much to do about that now. get up kids tomorrow, halloween haunt thursday (i somehow think it will just be me and nakita this year, but that's ok) and i forget what i'm doing friday. oh yeah, renewing my gym pass. maybe i'll trek up to rancho this weekend. i gots some hanging out to do.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

yourscenesucks.com

want a description of the perfect guy?


a blend of the post rocker, prehistoric emo, orgcore punker and skramz revivalist.


the job recruiting event was meh. it reminded me faintly of the holiday core training at apple. i don't know if i sold myself to them as a salesperson. i'm not really like that. it's ok though, i'm not seriously looking for a job just yet.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

the sun will come out tomorrow

12 pm. 3:30pm. 7pm.
[he hands her his heart]

"you do realize, i'm breaking up with you, right?"

"that's the strange thing. it's actually yours now. i don't know why it works this way, but i'm never going to be able to get over you. and so from now on every girl that i meet will be meticulously compared to you and unfortunately, none of them will be able to measure up to the false memory of what you and i once had."

"well maybe i can just keep it for a little while, use it for small things like if i have a shitty day or i need someone to talk to, or if i need someone to lift something heavy. and then eventually i'll give it back to you when we both find someone new."

"unfortunately, it won't work that way."

"why not?"

"well, now that you have my heart i'm pretty much an empty cavity inside. for a lack of a better term, heartless. i will now treat each woman i meet with a passive aggressive contentiousness, that will ruin relationship after relationship for many years to come."

dreamboat, i tell you...