i remember why i didn't like eating asparagus before. my mom cooks it in a way that makes me not want to eat it.

i'll have to cook it myself next time.

my wisdom teeth are going to kill me. my wisdom teeth are going to kill me.

THE PAIN!!!

i looked in the mirror today, and noticed that something was different. i'm not quite sure what it was.

good last minute hang tonight. put some things in perspective. that was needed.

I'm sorry you seem so stung
And I'm sorry you think you have to hold your tongue
When you're so pretty and smart
I'm seeing you caving in
Becoming afraid of all these men
That you've given your heart

I saw you with your make up running down
Now what's that all about
You say you don't want anyone around
Cause you're cleaned out
All cleaned out

i think i want to get keel's other book fill-in book, all about me. after my early satisfaction with the simple diary, i think all about me would be a neat investment. i could fill it out and save it to look at later in the future. or for my kids. who knows.

amber and jon both got into ucla! i'm so proud of both of them. for jon, i am still in awe that he knew what it was he wanted to do at age 16. i don't think i could have had my plan worked out at that age. (he left high school at age 16 to go to community college, and now he is transferring into ucla [if he doesn't get into berkeley] as a junior at age 18). i'm super happy for both of them. now my top bitches are both going to be in la. if this doesn't sound like a party, i don't know what does. today was too good to me.

while listening to dorkrockcorkrod earlier this week, i had an epiphany. what the fuck was i doing? even though the thought itself was fairly simple, i thought of the phone call i had received a week or so earlier from a close friend who lived far away. he had called to tell me how much he appreciated my presence in his life and that he felt he didn't express it enough. this set off a chain reaction of thoughts. i thought of all the relationships i had with my friends' parents (of the ones i had met and become familiar with). i thought of andy's family, christina's parents, roman's dad, stephanie's family, and so forth. and you know what? i'm really fucking awesome. i don't say that to sound vain, but i am a good friend to those i deem worthy. what am i doing hanging on by a thread to some guy who doesn't even deserve it? realizing that i could easily out grow him in two to three years, i decided this was another thing to add to the list of things to be axed.

long story short, he agreed with everything i had to say, and we are currently nothing. i don't think we can bounce back from this, in friendship or dating, as the weird relationship we've had going on for a year now might be irreparably damaged. i could not be more relieved.

it's the end of the dark ages mothafuckaaaa.


i think the ergs! might have just changed my life a little bit.