my life has changed in ways i couldn't have predicted from the end of last year, for the better. i'm welcoming 2011 with open arms.

i don't get to find out until two weeks before the weekend i requested off if i got it off or not. that is some BS.

taking everything one step at a time. 15 days.

some things i'd like right now

warmth
more hours in a day - so i can catch up on sleep and actually be rested for school, AND to catch up on my netflix
a haircut
my room to be cleaner
more days off

and now everything is riding on a bet that i can't win
if (s)he's not the answer i've been looking for then i'll never ask again

life is full of possibilities.

the natural progression of things.

i've been so reluctant to trust these days. being disappointed and let down is now on my list of things i fear (although it should have been a long time ago, it wasn't). i'm starting to take signs and fate a little bit more seriously than i used to, which was almost not at all. it feels like everything seems to happen for a reason. whether that is really the case or not, it's all very coincidental and i'm okay with that.

i always feel unadjusted the morning following a night of drinking. i'm disheveled, forgetful, and tired too. tomorrow is a new day?

presently concerned with the amount of school work i need to finish before wednesday. i was pretty upset when i realized i had taken nearly as many electives as the amount of classes required for igetc. looking on the bright side though, better to take those classes now at the price i'm paying for them than to not have, because i probably won't have time to do that after my major prep requirements are done.