my body/mind has a weird way of telling me about things i do/don't want. if i'm unsatisfied in a relationship or the person i'm dating, i don't break up with them. i'm just not nice to them. i am a straight up bitch to them. i know i'm not alone on this one.

and this thing now.. it's not like i haven't been asked out on dates, i just always say no. and the only person that has my affections has never asked or taken me out on a date, or i think ever will. maybe my body/mind knows this, and also knows that deep down i really don't want to be dating.. hence why i'm interested in someone who will never give me that.

MIRACLES.